Confused and annoyed some guy showed up after a year and tried to fight me because he was supposed to save me? [dryly.]
...I don't regret it. Kairi, Riku and the others were too important to let go. But I kind of think maybe I should've told them before I ended up just disappearing.
[sometimes. you make a choice, hide it from your friends and literally say you have to leave and disappear 10 seconds later.]
I'd already made the choice by the time I could tell them, but yeah. [...] I think they would've let me make my own decisions even if they didn't agree. It's always been that way.
And even though I had time to tell her, I didn't want to. I wanted to spend as much time with her and the others as I could before I left.
[this is more than he actually planned on telling raven, period, but he's definitely had time to come to terms with these things over the course of this competition.]
...was it the same for you? [raven has mentioned he's died but admittedly he still doesn't quite know much about his whole. everything.]
... The time I properly died? No. There wasn't anything heroic about that. Our whole brigade got wiped out. [He could go into more detail, but it's not really relevant here and it's all very depressing. So he wont!!]
But recently I made some new friends as Raven. And as Schwann, I betrayed them. But when I realized the Commandant's plans was gonna result in them all dying, I made the choice ta prevent it, even though it meant dying in their place. I figured, I was living on borrowed time anyway. Might as well give it up ta make amends.
[A pause, where he sighs.]
Next thing I knew, my men were diggin' me out of the rubble. So maybe things'll work out for you, too.
[there's a wince. he has sora's sympathy at least, yikes. but he listens anyway and seems to take that all in, not entirely understanding the difference between Raven and Schwann but also getting it just enough to follow along.]
Something must've protected you from really dying then. That's good, isn't it? And even though you betrayed your friends, you turned around and did the right thing to help them again. [it says a lot.]
...how much time was borrowed time at that point though?
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[Sometimes you just have to be sad and mad. Smad.]
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...I don't regret it. Kairi, Riku and the others were too important to let go. But I kind of think maybe I should've told them before I ended up just disappearing.
[sometimes. you make a choice, hide it from your friends and literally say you have to leave and disappear 10 seconds later.]
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[He understands this feeling.]
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And even though I had time to tell her, I didn't want to. I wanted to spend as much time with her and the others as I could before I left.
[this is more than he actually planned on telling raven, period, but he's definitely had time to come to terms with these things over the course of this competition.]
...was it the same for you? [raven has mentioned he's died but admittedly he still doesn't quite know much about his whole. everything.]
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[He could go into more detail, but it's not really relevant here and it's all very depressing. So he wont!!]
But recently I made some new friends as Raven. And as Schwann, I betrayed them. But when I realized the Commandant's plans was gonna result in them all dying, I made the choice ta prevent it, even though it meant dying in their place. I figured, I was living on borrowed time anyway. Might as well give it up ta make amends.
[A pause, where he sighs.]
Next thing I knew, my men were diggin' me out of the rubble. So maybe things'll work out for you, too.
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Something must've protected you from really dying then. That's good, isn't it? And even though you betrayed your friends, you turned around and did the right thing to help them again. [it says a lot.]
...how much time was borrowed time at that point though?
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[That's.... a haunting thing to say. But don't worry about it!]
They really let me have it afterwards, fer everything I did. But it wouldn't have felt right if they didn't, I think.
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But you're still your own person, aren't you? Even if it's weird sometimes, there are still things that make you very much yourself.
[it's similar to how he views himself and roxas even if it's not entirely the same. it's the best idea he can relate it to.]
I can't say I blame them after a betrayal like that. So what happens now? What do you have waiting for you back home?