[Ouch!! But also he isn't really that surprised, jumping slightly more out of a reflex to the pain than anything.]
... I suppose I don't have a choice, if it's an order. [He smiles, but it's... sad. He's not sure if he can properly honor Claude's orders, but it's a nice thought.]
When you die, that's it. It doesn't matter what you've done, what you meant to do, or what you ever wanted. It's over.
I don't know what you want... but I think you want something. And as long as you're alive, I hope you can find it. If that thing you want ends up being death then... at least you can say you lived.
(That's what he thinks. And that's why he isn't letting it go.)
[He could lie. Just reassure Claude that yes, he's right, and he doesn't have to worry. But... Claude's basically an adult. Or at least he deserves to be treated as one.]
... I'm sorry to disappoint you, Claude. Maybe the man who died had a will like that. But an empty shell doesn't want anything. [He doesn't want to die. But he doesn't want to live, either.]
But I'll do my best to do as you asked. [To not die.]
[Ow!!! Rude!!! The expression of pain and surprise on his face then is so genuine and probably the most emotion he's shown since... this whole thing happened. It's kind of bleak that it's moments like this when he most looks like "Raven" again. And then he actually shifts into vague annoyance.]
I- That's my point. I'm telling you there's no reason to. I'm staying alive purely because you told me to. There's nothing that I want.
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... I suppose I don't have a choice, if it's an order.
[He smiles, but it's... sad. He's not sure if he can properly honor Claude's orders, but it's a nice thought.]
You've been quite intent on this point, you know.
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I don't know what you want... but I think you want something. And as long as you're alive, I hope you can find it. If that thing you want ends up being death then... at least you can say you lived.
(That's what he thinks. And that's why he isn't letting it go.)
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... I'm sorry to disappoint you, Claude. Maybe the man who died had a will like that. But an empty shell doesn't want anything.
[He doesn't want to die. But he doesn't want to live, either.]
But I'll do my best to do as you asked.
[To not die.]
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Stop assuming things. I'm not disappointed in anyone. I believe in you.
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I- That's my point. I'm telling you there's no reason to. I'm staying alive purely because you told me to. There's nothing that I want.